Love Truly Forever: Archive

Another Update from 2010-2011 Present

For some reason I always come back to you tumblr, throughout crazy periods in my life. Well- I am twenty mother-fucking years of age, married with a calico cat and a pitbull mix, I live in a one bedroom apartment on the first floor, we are going on our second year here. Fuck KFC- You know what they say the faster you climb, the harder you fall. All the way from KFC store manager back down to...

Oct 31st

i love katie!-

Your song postings are making my day =] I miss you, all-state, mr williamsons, watching you cut your split ends constantly! Good luck with graduation!!

May 15th

May 5th

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Apr 2nd

26 notes

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Mar 31st

i have to say-

life. never what i expected. by now i could be going to rollins full-time getting myself into a ton of debt, but eventually marrying this guy with a rich inheritance, and living happily ever after right? WRONG. Now I’m here living in poverty, working at kfc, only able to pay my bills by the skin of my teeth. Frothing up inside with desire to change the world musically, addicted to...

Mar 27th

and so I've met my match-

Realization number one: You have to want somebody, not need them. Nobody likes a needy person because what good does that do the other person, how does that help THEM grow at all? How does it help the relationship? Example: Dustin, needed someone to be there when his parents got divorced and when he was about to drop out of school. Furthermore, it didn’t work out because as I was growing and...

Mar 27th

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Mar 9th

Friday the 13th-

2 cars got wrecked, everything and anything that could possibly fall, did, someone died, and my car is dead. greatttttttttttttt weekend im about to have with no car, 10 cigarettes, a few rillos with no bud, and NOOOOOO place to smoke unless i tell my parents that i do. & unless he wants to drive over here im probably not seeing him this weekend. which sucks

Nov 14th

i am going to attempt to-

just let everything flow out of me so i can actually get some rest but fuck man. i feel so fucking ridiculous right now. i want a relationship but at the same time i dont. i want him but he doesnt really feel the same way because he doesnt want to be another dustin and i know that and whos to say that he wont because im the one who is screwed up and can never let anything out. im too worried about...

Nov 12th

Listen

Nov 6th

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Nov 6th

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Nov 6th

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Nov 6th

i want this tattooed on me-

Nov 5th

Listen

Nov 4th

Oct 27th

Sublime

meshedwithrose: In honor of Sublime, I smoked six joints today. I smoke two joints in the morning, I smoke two joints at night, I smoke two joints in the afternoon, it makes me feel alright. In honor of us, we should smoke together. I miss you rose!

Oct 27th

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Oct 27th

I care too much-

Point blank. I shouldn’t be calling him to see how he’s doing. Who the fuck cares? I’m not with him anymore so I need to think about myself. Its like this. My heart is hardened, like hard leather, which can still be penetrated but only with the right arrow. It has soft spots. And with me, I let the soft spots determine how I fight. I need not care so much. But not caring is...

Oct 24th

wow-

I’m sorry that I did that. I honestly have just been telling everyone that we should hang out soon, I didn’t think it would be that big of a deal. My days have been crazy, unsure, unlikely. You know that question everyone always asks about if there was a night that you would put on repeat for the rest of your life. I’d have to say last night was probably one of those nights....

Oct 13th

God I feel so accomplished-

I freaking laminated checklists for every position at work and velcroed markers to them so i can mount them by each station.. & you know what. I like it! so suck it world. Working is fun, keeps things interesting in life. especially with such awesome people =] Anywho, NICOTENE HEADACHEEEEEEEE but ill die if i smoke a cigarette, im so sick right now. I miss him. No, I really miss him. =\

Oct 4th

whoa (Update)-

Going back and reading all my posts about it after the fact really puts a new light on things. I REALLY didn’t like what I was doing, yet I still did it to myself. I suppose I lack in the self-respect department. Anyways, things are alot different now, For those of you who care for an UPDATE! 1. Dustin and I are over. We said our goodbyes and I’m living with myself. Everyday is a...

Oct 3rd

To new like.

You are so mysterious to me. Although you and I seem to really hit it off, I’m still confused. I’m not looking for a relationship. and neither are you. But its sort of hard when I came from something so intimate and then I have to stand alone. You intrigue me in such a way that makes my head spin. But still I’m wondering, am I being overbearing? I wish there was some way to see...

Oct 3rd

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Jul 19th

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im so scared-

Of following my heart. I need to take the risk for my own good but its so hard leaving things behind. fuckkk i hate this.

Jul 17th

I'm so close to finishing my book it hurts.

stop-selahtime: I just have to bring all the sections together!!! It’s harder than it sounds Anyway, any takers on reading the first complete draft? when I answer it, of course!! :) bring it on baby!

Jul 17th

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haha-

fuck you tumblr. my tumbarity, which was at 100 like a week ago is now down to 3. lol. XD Waking up early to cook for the lovah! want a cigaretteeeeee. maybe later. night all.

Jul 11th

I feel so good knowing the whole world has their...

Jul 11th

He's cheating on me-

With World of Warcraft. fucking can’t even keep his phone charged. This summer is 82347237y5287534572456287465 X worse than the last. i miss the way things used to be.

Jul 9th

Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?

thisisacelliststumblr: pavedparadise: thisisacelliststumblr: (via srsly) Caught in a landslide, no escape from reality. Open your eyes, look up to the skies and see… I’m just a poor boy, I need no sympathy. cause im easy come easy go!

Jul 4th

Just so its all clear-

I give up! Whats the fucking point of posting a blogsecret when every fucking person reblogs it saying some negative shit! >.

Jul 4th

one hundred truths.

haha i was listening to the same song as selah when i found this. mochaheart: yasminspired: sashagabrielle: alwaysmemberneverforget: rawrxja: 1. Last beverage: water 2. Last phone call: dustin, but he didnt answer =[ 3. Last text message: allen 4. Last song you listened to: miserable at best-mayday parade <—same. 5. Last time you cried: ive needed to cry for a while now. HAVE...

Jul 2nd

fuck you, okay?

Is it so hard to just let me be on my own? I pay for everything already. You shelter me, thats it. and now when I found a place of my own, well where I will be on my own, you go and say no. Its just too fucking far of a drive bitch! I dont want to jepordize my job because YOU guys need to move. I don’t. everything i have is here, in Kissimmee. You refuse on the one thing I need HELP with,...

Jun 28th

disadvantage #1:

to being fully awake at 630 in the morning. 1. All of the posts on your dashboard are all filling up with your own posts. >.< i neeeeeeed to sleep. my parents are getting up at this point. at least im off tomorrow.

Jun 27th

Dear love;

I adore you. I live, breathe, touch, feel, long for you. Every moment I am graced by your warmth, your bliss, your undying truth. Dear love, you capture me. Love, you change the world. You are used over and over and though you are believed to be meaningless, you hold true to those who like to love. Dear love, you are the definition of endearment. Out of you blossomed sweethearts, honeys, and...

Jun 27th

bold what is true

01. I have made bad decisions. 02. Having my neck kissed is my weakness. 03. My pets are important to me. 04. I love having my picture taken. 05. I like Diet Coke better. 06. I am the oldest kid in my family. 07. I’ve experienced true boredom. 08. I feel mature and wise, and still young at heart! 09. I am good at helping people. 10. I hate tv. 11. I am sarcastic. 12. I wish nobody hurt anymore....

Jun 27th

its now 620am

and im still awake 0.0

Jun 27th

i love how-

my ping is 2847298472947X bettter at 5am. than at 12pm haha. oh well I NEED TO SLEEEEEEP

Jun 27th

Write exactly what's on your mind and don't change...

sashagabrielle: ebonyshescrazysee: sydneyblews: paralysis: part deux 1. Your ‘ex’ and you: talk occassionally. 2. I am listening to: nothing at all. 3. Maybe I should: stop tihnk altogether 4. I love: DFL 5. My best friends: I miss them so much. 6. I don’t understand: alot. 7. I lost my respect for: a few employees. 8. I last ate: veggie burger <3 9. The meaning of my display name is:...

Jun 27th

The only way to get shit done is to listen to...

jackeyisaflockofunicorns: Actually, now that I’m thinking about it, I just want to chill. I’m about to dye Michelle’s hair. It’s this ridiculous dye with different compartments and highlighting shit. I just know that at two in the morning I want jam with this whole super-dye expirience. It’s going to get the job done. fuck yeah jack, thats always how you get it done. dude, i need some good...

Jun 27th

why the fuck-

1. Am I up at 430am and 2. did my tumblairity go up and i want even on today really. haha. oh well. anyways, I need to sleep dudes. & it would be nice to talk to a boyfriend today. haha. bowling tomorrroww

Jun 27th

off to see the bestie

laterrrrr

Jun 26th

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Jun 25th

it feels really good to know that-

For once your bra and panties match. Just one of life’s simple pleasures =D

Jun 25th